I woke up with really hot knees this morning and I thought, “Oh no!…not something else wrong”….then I realised my tits had dropped another 6 inches!!

Turning 30 was  but a blip on my radar….didn’t notice it.  Too busy getting married and working etc.  40…..same. Not getting married again but I didn’t feel any different and was very busy. Dealing with leaving my dream career after 15yrs and all the reasons that went with that and  brought a shop at 40 and had lots going on…….Actually my 40’s was a blur!!  But turning 50 this year….mentally?????   I am pissed off!!!  All of a sudden I am thinking…..”damn!!  where did that time go?” I don’t feel any different mentally……I still think the same things are funny and the same issues still upset me but I have realised just lately that “young” people view me as elderly!  Well, that sucks balls big time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I don’t hold my grog like I used to. In fact, I hardly drink much at all these days.  I pretend I am a wine soak…..but I’m not really 🙂  All of a sudden, or so it seems, I am sagging!  I am getting really noticeable wrinkles on my face and more grey hairs.  I feel a bit sad that finally I have lost some weight with the help of my band and feel the best I have in years, but the outside of me is going to the pack!  Bummer………………………..    I love how the pillow marks on my face take until lunchtime to plump back out again.  Or the mark where I have crossed my legs or had my leg pressed up against a desk or something just stays there…………….  all day!!  New veins have popped up all over the farking place!!  Well, I suppose they have been there all along, but they are all clamouring to make an appearance now:) 

But I’m happy most of the time and I guess that is what counts.  No serious illness for me or my loved ones….so I am blessed really.  I still say getting old sucks.  I am a hell of lot wiser of course…..  but nobody likes an old smartarse 🙂  I just love to laugh and make others laugh and as long as I’m able to do that then everything is OK in my little neck of the woods………or at least, that is what the voices are telling me 🙂

I work for the next four days.  Ricky is at work now and doesn’t finish until 2am if he is lucky.  We had an early Christmas catch-up with Ricky’s parents this week as they are going to Hobart for Christmas day.  We did the last of our Christmas shopping while we were up the coast visiting them. My family and Ricky’s daughter and her partner and girls are coming to us for Christmas day and Boxing day.  I guess everyone is busy leading up to the big day. 

Harry Highpants has developed quite a nasty limp on his back left leg and we think he may have done some real damage.  So, I am going to give him the weekend to see how he goes, but it is looking like a trip back up the coast to the vet early next week.  I thought I had finished with the trips until after Christmas!!  Oh well, you know I would sell my soul for my fur babies.

So, I will probably get another post in before the big day! I will let you know how Harry goes………  Stay safe and try and avoid those bloody awful hangovers!

Bad blogger…….

yes, well…….I have been off in la la land or something….but I think I have my mojo back.  I seem to have been so busy but have nothing to say!!  Not like me I know 🙂  I am a bit addicted to facebook…..but I am going to try and wean myself off that a bit and spend more time here.  Or maybe I will just put my whole life on hold and spend all day on here bouncing between crackbook and blogging and drinking coffee and eating shortbread.  I freaking love shortbread!!!!!! 

I will update the weight thing on my weight thing page……..but nothing spectacular to report.  Actually, I think I may have been suffering some kind of low grade depression the last few months…..or maybe it could have been totally high grade, depths of despair depression but I just didn’t realise?  How do you know?  I was crying all the time.  I just felt like crying constantly….and angry!!  Don’t know where that came from?  I wondered if it might be menopause or something or hormonal rather than ridgy didge depression?  But not crying so much that I couldn’t function or anything….just feeling like crying but didn’t mostly if you know what I mean?  Anyway……I found it bloody annoying and inconvenient!!  I told the doctor and she suggested St John’s Wort…….so that is what I am taking.  So, now I don’t know if the Wort is working or if I am just over it…… thats farking complicated isn’t it?????  I suppose I could stop taking it and if I feel like a good cry then the wort must have been working 🙂  Nahhhhhh……might stay on it and be merry for the Christmas for now at least.  Maybe I’m possessed?  Maybe I just crossed to the dark side and now I am back?  Maybe that was the real me and this is the fake me????  Oh stop me….stop me now  🙂

I am still at the lollie shop and I am still struggling in that regard.  I am still addicted to eating porridge at odd times of the day and night.  Matter of fact…….I just had a bowl not 10 minutes ago…..  What else??……

We got our licences and intend to do a lot of fishing this season.  We both enjoy fishing and find it very relaxing.  This was our first day up the river after getting the licences and arsie pants caught the biggest trout at 6lbs either of us have ever caught!!!  Of course, he would have lost it if it wasn’t for my superb netting skills.  I haven’t heard the end of this catch….and never will until I catch something!!  *sigh*  I had to take an extra St John’s Wort that day 🙂

I gave up and poured myself a nice hot coffee!!  The thermos and biscuits are the highlight of any fishing trip for me ..

Harry is still tired and doesn’t like to be disturbed 🙂

Ricky is the Christmas tree and Scarlett is the angel………………………….don’t ask 🙂

And Flo might be nearly 19yrs old…..but she still enjoys a good Christmas decoration!!  Just a quick little round-up for you……I will be back…….because I have my MOJO back!!!!!   yayyyyyyy