why haven’t I blogged for a while……oh, you know……Ricky has been busy having heart attacks and other minor stuff like that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Well, I had better fill you in 🙂 Early last week he came home around lunch time from work and says he isn’t feeling well. I say, “what kind of not feeling well?” It is so hard to get information out of men sometimes….especially where their health is concerned!! He starts to describe his pain in the centre of the chest and a feeling like a “blood pressure cuff is on too tight” around the top of his left arm. I say, “Get yourself around to the medical centre this instant!!” He says….OK!!!! I knew he must have been worried because I didn’t get any argument out of him. He goes out and gets back in his police car and off he goes around the road. I fiddle about turning off a couple of things I had going on the stove and head out the door about 10 minutes after him. Thought I would go to the medical centre also and make sure he tells them what is actually going on!
When I get there he is flat on his back on the bed hooked up to the ECG monitor thing and looking quite worried……so did the nurse….which in turn panicked me!! Long story short…….he had irregular ECG readings coming back and they felt he should go to hospital. Three hours by road……..for ME !!! HE got to go by air ambulance in relative comfort in the space of half an hour 🙂 I was totally panicked and had visions of him dying on the flight or the plane crashing or something!! I raced home, packed up me and the dogs….organised Sue to feed the cat and took off!! It seemed like the longest drive in history.
Anyhow……we ended up staying with my parents for a few days until things settled down and we got required blood tests done etc. No permanent damage and not even sure if he has had a heart attack or not really. Just the irregular ECG thing. We are going back up next week for him to have a stress ECG done….where they wire him up and put him on an exercise bike and get the blood test results. Until then he is off work and taking it easy for a couple of weeks. So, it has been a tad stressful but all is pretty good now and things are back to as normal as they will ever be in our house!! 🙂
This lolly shop is killing me slowly……but surely. I don’t know why but it is getting harder not to nibble at things through the day. Maybe the stress of late? More than likely……but I need to learn to deal with these things without feeding my face!! Being in a lolly shop is farking awful when you are under stress…..trust me when I tell you this. I could stick my head under the soft serve ice-cream tap and turn that bastard on!! I HAVE to get a grip!! Way too much of everything is slipping down my throat. I will leave my job if I have to…..it is just too accessible. I am struggling…..really struggling. I love my job but I don’t love how it puts me right in the line of fire……I thought I would be OK. The last couple of weeks I am starting to doubt it.
I do know that I will come right….. I always do. I think we all sink into lows….just the depth varies depending on our mental health at the time! Sometimes it is harder to drag yourself out than before….but we do. I have been walking as much as I can to compensate for what I have been eating. Consequently I haven’t put any weight on……YET…..but I haven’t lost any either 😦 I NEED to stop eating shit!!!!!!!!!!!!! I CAN stop eating shit!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WILL stop eating shit!!!!!!!!!!!!!
DRAMA???!!!!! MUCH???!!!! WHO ME 🙂