1st January…..a new year, new start blah blah blah. I am NOT making any resolutions. I kind of made enough of them towards the end of last year when I decided to have my band. I resolved to do a lot of stuff for ME once I had the band. The band being the first of the ME things. I resolved myself to the fact I was fat and unhappy about that and I resolved myself to the fact that I needed help to do something about it. So, I am actually in front for the new year as far as resolutions go 🙂 Did you like how I twisted that to suit myself!!
I kind of don’t make “out loud” resolutions….I make little promises in my head about stuff I would like to do or do better for the coming year. Actually, my head has been so full with this new band and all that it entails that I haven’t had room in there for any little “promises” this year!!……………………….so, if I had to make an “out loud” resolution it would be that I just try and live in the moment and take each event/moment as it comes along and deal with it to the best of my ability. Before I “lose” it over something I hope I can pause and think……Nola, will this really matter in 5 years time or 5 months time or even 5 days time?? If the answer is no, then I hope I can brush it off without too much drama and move on. This is hard for me because I am such a drama queen!!! Just to be happy and make others happy if I can….if I can’t……then I give myself permission to wallow…..because wallowing is part of being in the moment too!!!
I probably need to try and stop worrying about things that haven’t even happened yet also…..yeah, that’s a good one!! Like, I go back to work tomorrow (yes, I know on a Friday….bastards!!) and already I am worrying about putting up with the stressed out, midlife crisis guy I work with. Like, he has flashes of a person I could really like….but not often 🙂 I know I am probably half to blame because I don’t seem to be able to summon up a pretence at being happy to be there with him. We “get on” but it is like a little pressure cooker somedays and I feel like either crying from frustration or strangling the living shit out of him! …..mind you, he probably feels the same about me. Just a big personality clash I think. Oh well, he’s stuck with me……I need the money!!
So there is a kind of resolution list……..live in the moment and don’t worry about things that haven’t happened or may never happen!! Awwww….I was tricked….you dragged a resolution out of me 🙂