That’s right folks…….I’m hot, I’m fresh and I’m delicious!! I got on and off the scales three times this morning because I couldn’t really believe it….but they still said “give us a farking break, fatty!!” Nahhh….they said 99.8kgs. Now, I know that is just under…..but I’m takin’ it and runnin’ with it baby!! The last time I can remember being under 100kgs was on my wedding day when I was 90 something. We were married 17yrs ago!!! So, you see, I am pretty bloody chuffed about that! The 100kg mark is a big, big mental thing for me. I have been so close so many times and then just when I think I might break it…….I put it back on for some reason. I will never, ever be triple figures again…………..never!!!!!!
I found myself thinking my old thought patterns again today as well. Each time I have been successful losing weight and a lot of it, it has been with the “help” of something. That something might have been Jenny Craig, or WW or Xenecal or Herbalife or “speed” slimming tablets or shakes etc etc. So, I always had this subconcious thought that…….yeah, wow……I have lost some weight……but it won’t last because when I stop this I will be free wheeling again and it is sure to come back on. Guess what?….it always did!! When I look back on everything I tried and the money I spent it makes me want to cry. I felt so bloody good when the weight started to come off……..but then, well……you know…..the minute I stopped my latest craze and took my eye off the ball…..unless I was absolutely obsessing and living and breathing the diet of the moment……I would put the weight back on.
So, I sort of had a quick check of my thoughts and then it struck me……this is forever!!! I am not going to stop this diet…..hell, it’s not even a diet! This is going to keep on keeping on like Berger bloody paints!!!! There is no end, no big “OK, you can finish now and go back to how you were living before” sign. Never again will I eat so much that I have to lay down and undo my trousers and can hardly breathe because I am so full. This is a whole new lifestyle and it is one that I can keep doing forever……no ending it. There was certainly a definite beginning…..but no end. Wow…..this is a huge thought process to wrap your head around really. Everything else I have tried has ended. This will not………exciting, but a little daunting at the same time.
I can’t see myself a few sizes smaller just yet. I know I have dropped a size already. I brought a size smaller trousers only today………but it hasn’t sunk in yet. It just doesn’t seem real for now. I know it will and I intend to love every minute of it and the compliments are already starting to flow in. But me??…a size 14??? I can’t picture it. Maybe I was that size for a short time in early highschool……but now in my late 40’s???? It is possible and it will most likely happen…….but I am doing my best just to come to terms with the fact I brought trousers a size smaller than what I was wearing last month!! Don’t get me wrong….I’m loving it 🙂 But I can see it will take my head a bit longer to catch up with the body after all this time.
What have I noticed this week??……… When I used to cross my legs I always tucked the foot of the “crossed” leg behind the table leg or the chair in front of me to stop it falling off the bottom leg. Or I would hold the top leg with my hand. Know what I mean? Now, I can cross my legs without the top leg gradually slipping off and back onto the floor again!
Tomorrow, Ricky and I are off to Strahan, a beautiful little “fishing village” on the Wild West Coast of Tassie that has been placed on crack by the developers and has become very “touristy”….but still beautiful. It is about 3 hours drive from here. We are going to a wedding. The ceremony is on one of the cruise boats there that does the Strahan Harbour and Gordon River tours. Then the reception is in a motel right up on the hill overlooking the harbour and everything. It should be really beautiful. I hope the weather stays nice for them. We are booked in to stay the night at the same place the reception is. I am really looking forward to it……..even more so now I have lost a bit of weight and will feel more comfortable. So, I will take lots of pictures for you and put some up on Sunday night when I get back.
Have a great weekend everyone!